Hello everyone! I am so happy to be back with a new outfit post! I have missed blogging and sharing my experiences with you. Today, I wanted to share something a bit more personal than usual.
So, I know that you all must have noticed my lack of posts over the past few months, particularly my outfit posts, especially during the month of July. It has truly been a struggle to post in the last few months because I started to develop some issues with my health early in March and, despite going to my doctor continuously and reaching out to specialist for months, none of the medical professionals could figure out what was wrong with me. Though, in spite of not knowing exactly what was wrong with me, many of the doctors were perfectly willing to prescribe medication for my symptoms, which I find so disturbing about the medical profession, but I won’t rant about that now.
Instead of taking the medication for the symptoms, I pursued more medical specialists to get to the heart of the issue. In the meantime, my symptoms began to worsen and I started to have issues with my breathing, particularly in June, so much so that, after a couple of weeks, I was not able to speak for long periods of time, laugh or even cry. As a result, I was rushed to the emergency room on July 9th, a few days after my birthday, and had to spend 3 weeks in the hospital enduring test after test. Finally, the doctors discovered my issue! While I am not quite emotionally ready to discuss the diagnosis in detail, as it has been emotionally draining on me, my mother, my family and my friends, my doctors assure me that it should be completely addressed in a few months. Currently, I am feeling a lot better, at least much better than I expected, and I definitely feel that I am on the road to recovery.
That being said, I want to express how important it is to be your own advocate when it comes to your health, especially as a plus-size woman. I truly feel that throughout this process most of the doctors were somewhat dismissive about my concerns and not making appropriate connections because of my weight. One of my main complaints when I began to notice issues with my health was swelling. Perhaps, that was too vague of a symptom for them to make any connections. However, I feel that they did not truly believe I was all that swollen because they were so focused on my size, despite my insistence, which was frustrating because I know my body. Furthermore, it is imperative that you listen to yourself and your body and continue to pursue answers when you know something is not right. If I had listened to my doctors in the beginning with their quick fixes (read: prescribing medications without an actual diagnosis), I likely would have never discovered the real issue and, perhaps, may not have been here to share my story.
I want to thank you all for your thoughts, well wishes and prayers. They have been so uplifting for me and my family at this time. Also, I want to assure you that I will be maintaining my blog because I truly enjoy sharing my love of fashion and personal style with you. There may be times that I am not physically able to do outfit posts, but I will certainly keep my blog updated with other fashion posts. I appreciate you all sticking with me as I go through this process.
Thank you and thanks for reading.